Wednesday, April 13, 2005

: : this week : :

just came back from dinner with sy. thanks sy fer accompanying me. i know u are not so happy today but anyway thanks. many things happen this week.

for starters, JUNE! she was admited to sunway medical fer an APENDICsumthingTOMY. at first she went to the mmu panel doc. the doc said it was nothing but some kind of bladder infection. but then june got worried so she went for a second opinion. well she was lucky that she did that. the doc said that the thing almost rupture. she now in penang resting.

exam was teribble. finance paper is a certain failure. i m sure that i will be taking the supplementary. others was terible aslo but i tink i can manage to pass. imagine sleeping for 4 hours in 3days. that was what i felt when i took that paper. after that went sunway with sy, wz, yq and ml. watch BECOOL.

this afternoon went to REDBOX with co n bh. sang for about 3 hours and it onli cost me 8 bucks. hahahahahah~!~!!~~! i think i m addicted to karaoke...hahahha sing sing~!~~!~! after singing we went for waffels. yum yum~!~!next stop was brickfields vihara. we offered flowers and prayed.

i duno why but everytime when i step in to the temple i feel sumthing strange. you see, during the tsunami disasters, i went there a few time to help out. at first the place was empty with just a few volunteers helping to sort the stuffs and pack them to their respective boxes but after a few days the whole place was filled with about 1000 volunteers. there is not even space for the lorries to come in. but now the whole temple is empty. i remember once while i was helping out there was a MALAY couple helping out in the TEMPLE. I REPEAT MALAY COUPLE IN A TEMPLE. you dont see this often do u. as i know malays or islams can be involve with other religions. deep down inside i felt something. i cant discribe that happy feeling. some people might think that i am a very religious person. i must admit i am not . i dont even know why i m involve in so many buddhist acctivity. it all began with me attending a camp after my highschool. that this is was purely for GIRLS.

i m not a person who speaks his mind out. i find it extreamly difficult to even express myself right. dont get me wrong i m not a quiet person, i m if fact quite loud. very often i keep my feeling inside of me. sometime i just wish people could really know what i feel inside. even more i wish i could understand myself better. i take people's word seriously. when people say something good or bad someone or something or even me, i really take that into serious consideration. for example sher said that i m acting more and more desprate, come to think of it i am. i am because i m getting lonelier and lonelier. i m being more and more isolated with my friends and family. sher dun get me wrong, i m not angry at you one bit, in fact i m very glad that u told me.

will be having my last paper tomorrow, so till the next blog, everyone may you all be well and happy.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

sigh *guilty*

guess i should control what i say and stuff. im really sorry about that. Just that i couldnt stand it when u kept saying that u r lonely but the fact is that u hav so many ppl around..

see, u hav su yen n all.. u always hang out wit them and all.. arent they ur friends? if u say u r lonely.. this indirectly points at us, ur friends .. that we dont take care of u properly..

which is a lie. U know we DO care about u.. rite?

*sherz* *hugz*

10:17 AM  

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